Wednesday, January 30
Monster Karyn misses Grandpa alot alot.
Got the news that Grandpa left on Tuesday night. I cried like mad-which was kind of like expected-and Mommy was like shocked by me cuz i cried so loud and long. I thought that i was gonna go blind. Rushed down to the hospital but didnt get to see Grandpa for the last time; I got the news when everything was almost settled at the hospital. HAiiii. Grandma, Dad, Uncle and Aunt cried until their eyes were super red and swollen. Me too. I just "WAAHHHHHHHH" when i reached the hospital. I know it's damn embarrassing but I just couldn't control my tears. That was the first time my tears misbehaved.
A day passed.
And I think I ain't that sad about it anymore. Uncle says that Grandpa is feeling better now, he's free from suffering already. Yeahh i agree, so I hope for the best for Grandpa. I kinda accepted the fact that Grandpa has passed away. But Grandma is quite affected by it. She has been crying non-stop and I seriously have no idea how to console her. If I were her, I'd have done the same. 50 years of love and companionship from Grandpa, and suddenly he's gone. Everyone says "that's life" so yah lor, just accept it. What can I do..
I always remember how Grandpa sits at the dining table when he was healthy. He would have this big bowl of rice in front of him, and he would start eating after he has prepared his "bin" for the fish bones. Grandpa loves to eat fish. Yeahh. And he always tells me "wong shi min, you must study hard, and go abroad to finish ur university like ur aunts did. don't have to worry about financial problems, Granpa will settle it for you". And I still remember the way that Grandpa drives me home from school everyday during my primary school days. He would drive very very slowly, and say that that's the safest way to drive; but actually I know he's just concerned about his Merz. And he would always give in to me when the naughty little me was super wilful. Like when I complained, "Grandpa! Why did you take so long to come? I was waiting for you until I almost died!" he would just smile and ignore. Haha, that's my Grandpa, who loves me and dotes on me alot alot. Haha, maybe because I'm his only granddaughter. But yeah, I'm very glad I have my Grandpa with me. I know he'll always be with me. Whenever I look into the coffin and see him, I dunno why, I have this feeling that Grandpa has never ever left. Creepy I know. But I love this feeling. I love the way that Grandpa assures me that he'll always be there. Grandpa's great. And he's strong, strong enough to fight the battle against cancer for years. If Grandpa is that strong, I should be strong too. Make myself stronger, to fight many more battles ahead in my life. I know I can do it.
Grandpa knows that I can too.
Grandpa, your granddaughter misses you.
She loves you and thanks you for all the love that you gave her in her life.
You'll always be remembered.
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1/30/2008 04:08:00 PM
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Monday, January 28
tired. don't wanna blog le. or i should say, there's like nothing in my work that makes me happy.. i lost the enthusiasm i think. but i'll carry on cuz i wanna learn stuffs from there.
after THAT day, i'm like thinking, why will she say that.. blahblah. then when i told my uncle abt that. i suddenly realised tat i'm really ambitious. i never thought that i was ambitious-never ever, until i talked to my uncle and he actually knocked some sense into my hollow brain. no wonder they say capricorns are ambitious. i am. i know. but without that characteristic, i think i lost my enthusiasm for my job. serious. it's like, suddenly, i realised my job ain't that good aft all. i'm just being treated as a bouquet factory where i just keep wrapping bouquets-the same bouquets after each. i don't actually get to mix and match the flowers i like, use my favourite wrapping papers. so it's like, i'm sian-ed. i was wrong..
nevermind, it's ok. karyn wong, it's absolutely fine. like what uncle says, just do what they tell me to, don't try to make extraordinary bouquets and all, and i'll be SAFE. there'll be chances for me to show what i can really do. yepps. no worries.
i need entertainment!!
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1/28/2008 09:35:00 AM
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Tuesday, January 22
i'm kinda adapting to my job at the outlet alr. but i'm still the blur blur type though.
anyways, i had a great time with steffie,yuan&zay on fri nite! lalala.
and a super duper great time with porkchops celebrating lesi's birthday on sat. haha. made alot of last min changes, but everything still turned out super fine. porkchops never fail to make me laugh my heart out. heheh! except for the video part. so malu. ARHH!
anyway, agnes intro-ed me to her bro, who's the boss of a tuition centre that needs creative writing teachers. haha, $30 per hour larh. the pay is 5 times of what i'm earning. but i cant teachh!! but i'm gonna try, just give it a go. listen to mommy. bahhs. hope everything goes well. PRAYS.
and SHOPPING WITH KIANG!! yayy. i'm realli realli looking forward to it! so long nv hav a heart-to-heart talk with that pretty babe alr. and she's soooo sweet. always pop by my shop to say hi. so touched. LALALA. she never fail to brighten up my day.
and i seriously need to buy clothes for new year. i'm so UNPREPARED. again. i have a major problem with time management. but that's so me. ugh. irritated.
oh, and i'm not sad or lonely being single! hahaha. all thanks to joce. yayy, i know i'm fortunate being single. hehe!!
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1/22/2008 12:30:00 AM
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Thursday, January 17
i'm working like.. NOW.. hahah but so siannnnnn... no customers. so i'm bored. anyway, working at a florist at Suntec. come and buy some flowers from me if you happen to pass by. i'm seriously BOREDDDDD. hahahaha.
anyway, i feel more confident wrapping bouquets now, which is great. but i still need to be more confident to take orders and all. cuz i'm still a NOOB. i wanna be a PRO.. YAYY!!
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1/17/2008 06:44:00 PM
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Friday, January 11
my fingers are like SUPER COARSE now after the few days of working. i need hand cream, a super moisturizing one in fact.
but yayy!! i can wrap a bouquet alr!! a bouquet of dozen roses. hehe. i wrapped my first bouquet of 3 roses on o9o1o8! and my second bouquet of a dozen roses on 10o1o8, my third bouquet of my dozen roses TODAY! yayy. there's improvement, but still quite ugly. i need more practice : )
my first bouquet of my LIFE. ugly, but it's my best effort!
i wanna thank Lang for teaching me SOOOO patiently. she's very very nice eh, taught me so patiently and dint complain. she makes a very good teacher. and somemore i pester her all the time, "LANG! i cant wrap the flowers properly", "LANG! my flowers keep going out of shape!"
lalala. but i still learnt the skill of wrapping a bouquet.
i'm going to Suntec outlet on Monday. and i'm very worried. cuz according to the staff at the office, u need to wrap a bouquet within 15mins, and u need to serve customers-some annoying ones-blah blah blah. super worried larh. anw, i think i'm going to call Modissa and ask her about the outlet stuffs since she has had some experience working at Marina Square branch. savveeee meeee.... .... ....!!!
i had this random feeling these few days. i'm like, why was i so foolish? but ugghhs, i cant do anything now to undo what i did. and i seriously regretted my choice years back. haii.
i'm not exactly happy that i'm single. i'm not sad either. i'm just, feeling kinda weird?
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1/11/2008 09:49:00 PM
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Friday, January 4
2jan'o8
i got the job at Xpress Flowers!! HAHAHAH!! : ) so happy. actualli dint interview much. yaa.
then, went to keeyann's bf's mom's dept thing at tannery lane to paste stickers for sony ericsson k770i phones. wow, i think i pasted a million stickers larhh. did that for two days. was quite fun, cuz the aunties very nice. hahaa. budden everyone was so shy there, i could only take photo with one aunty, who entertained me quite alot in the 2 days.
3jan'o8
then, it's the 'CR' gathering! haha. indri's back!! so some of us met up lorr! YAYY.
-anyways, the adult fare is SUPER SUPER EXPENSIVE. it took me $2.10 to go from aljunied mrt to harbourfront mrt larh. sucks man.
yayaya, we met up, took photos. and yonghong is still super lame, song xi and him were stil bullying diana, and diana is still as nice, xuejun still as pretty, yangyang still as polite and cute, chuilaam stil as late (haha) and of cuz, ZAY AND YUAN are still as loved by me as EVER. hehehe.
went for dinner at Bosses restaurant. HEI SHE HUI. woo, cool rite. hahaha. the ambience super nice, and dark. hehe. and the toilet was like WOOOOWWW. u should go and check it out! : )
shared a double hot pot with diana. was super filling. and the soup damn nice. it's slightly costly, cuz that whole hotpot thing costs $38 excluding gst. but then indri paid la, so paiseh.
photos time!
outside Bosses restaurant..
i love them!
here's indri! the pretty woman!! mwahhs, i love her alot alot!!
what a cool drink!
ordered by YANGYANG : )
the super act cool guy, fu yong hong
who forced me to take this photo with him..
diana's camera shy!!
so is songxi!
xuejun, yuan and me! (my skills improved!)
the boy boy is giving out balloons! so cute larh he! he's only SIX!!
us on the mrt!
steffie!! where are you!!! yayy, can see u SOON alr!! wahaah.
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1/04/2008 11:39:00 PM
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Wednesday, January 2
i'm going for a job interview today, at Xpress Flowers. so YAY! haha, it's my interest to work as a florist ok, tho it's like, i'm not the boss. but anyways, just to gain experience : ) which is good. hahaha. thanks to modissa who's so nice to help me in getting that job. and i'm going with ya qing (her friend, but not mine) today at 9. which is super good cuz i'll have a companion then. YAY! new friend! hehe.
and i was super stupid. i had a dream last nite about this florist training centre. i totally didnt know anithing abt flowers except for looking at them and say "OH SO PRETTY" and then i kept kena scolding by my trainer, or supervisor.
i'm glad i had this dream, cuz dream's always the opposite of reality. YAYY! means i'll do a great job with it.
so happy!! and aft the interview, i'm gonna rush down to tannery lane to sony ericsson to paste stickers for $6/hour. i'll have income then! haha! thanks kee for the job offer! i'm gonna paste stickers for a super long time so i can earn lotsa money and i seriously hope they'll have MORE THAN ENOUGH for me to paste to last me the 2 days. : )
but received a call from diana just and she said that indri's back!! hmm, they're having this lunch gathering thing which i prob cant make it (SAD). so yahh. INDRI I MISS YOU!!
anyway, i think kenneth and gordon WILL make it big next time cuz they're such good bosses! tho gordon looks abit fierce (haha, but he's got a super pretty gf) he's quite nice larh. but he keeps saying "cannot" to my requests like "hey i go toilet arh". haha. and kenneth being the ever-so-nice who always says "can" to everything (according to him), i just think that they're good guys larhh! and they are super fortunate cuz both their gfs are DAMN PRETTY. i should've taken fotos with them, but i tink they'll tink i'm weird. actually gordon alr finds me weird cuz i keep saying his gf v pretty. oh well, that's me. haha.
but i'm utterly sorry for not being able to help out in the coming months. hmm, i'd prefer the florist job better (that's if i get the job). yaa. i know you all will understand cuz u all are such NICE PEOPLE. : )
it was great working with you all. and it was so surprising we got a "promotion" aft working for a few days, and we had to thank the rain. hahaha. for your info, we were giving out flyers one day when it rained super heavily so me and kee went back to the centre, and started selling the balloons and all, so yaa. we were promoted. haha. we didnt hav to give out flyers for the next few days, we just had to stay at the centre's door to sell balloons! YAY! hahaha.
i look forward to my new life!!
tho i'm like, resolution-less? hmm..
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1/02/2008 03:06:00 AM
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