Sunday, September 23
LAST DAY OF SLACKNESS!...
saddening.
feeling so bitter now thinking about my prelims. it's so sucky i'm worried i cant pass. my physics. ughh, so shitty. ayee. everything about exams is shitty for me. just so hate it. i wonder how i am to survive the one month long A-levels. actually it isn't the stress and all that's making me hate the A's, but more of the fact that it lasts for a whole month. and cambridge is reali quite irritating lah. they put physics paper'03 as one of the first papers. and the last paper is physics paper'01! yuck. which means that we have to study physics for the whole of the A's!!!
such a different feeling when i take Alevel prelims and Olevel prelims (duh!). but errhh. reali. i feel unprepared. really. and i think i'm so-not-confident when i take the papers. so aft the papers i'll be like staring into space, looking ard, not so willing to talk abt it. and i kinda blame myself for slacking the whole of year one. yupps. so i've learnt a great big lesson that has made me suffer ALOT. yikes.
wahaha! i'm starting to make plans for post A-level activities! heeehe. i'm gonna get a job. : )) definitely not a waitress. that's of course. imagine having to get a scolding from the irritating supervisors everyday just because u've accidentally toppled over the drinks. and that's something karyn wong always does. so yea, being a waitress is a NO-NO. hmm. most likely an office job thing would be better for me. at least i don't have to stand around and serve customers (i suppose). ayee.. see how lahh. anyway some say it's too early to think of it right now.
and i'm gonna save up to learn to arrange flowers and all that stuffs! heehe. u know, wrapping up flowers. : )) thinking of it makes me feel so happy. but i checked, it's not v cheap huh. but i wanna learn it. and i'll be able to wrap the bouquet the way i like and give it as a present. besides, i always think of a nice smelling home with the natural scent of flowers. plus, it'd be so satisfying to decorate my home with the flower arrangements i did. after that, i may also work at a florist to earn my bucks, doing what i enjoy... everything seems so pleasing to me okayy. but my mom was like, "huh, u study until A level then u tell me u wanna do this." but hey, what's the problem? it's something i like, and i didn't say i was going to do this for the rest of my life. it would be more of an interest rather than a job.
okok. i'm thinking too much already. hee, but that's my motivation to study ehhs. and it always works. great. i'm so happy now..! =D
oh yeahh. so i'm telling myself i shdnt slack any longer. it's because of my slackness that led me to the pitiful plight i'm in now. so, slacking aft A's, or before A's is no-way for me..
karyn jia you!! everyone jia you!! wahahah!! : ))
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9/23/2007 12:49:00 PM
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